Feel Stress and Lonely.

Today is a second days after christmas celebration and it is very joyful for me to celebrate and meditate it.
However, these few weeks ago I felt myself very different and very changing from my usual behavior. I get frustrated and upset very easily, particularly if hear to something that not very comfortable and comfranting my feeling and opinion.
I like the situation in peace, harmony, calm and silent while quite without hearing something that very hurting and offending.
I like to good to others and without 'over-use' my feeling and my good intention, that is what my simple demand only.

But why these such demand could not be fulfilled and joyfully do it in the life? Where is the true, original and pure peace that we seek? Does it wait for us or we need to seek it? Does it really come to us if we're fully seek it?

Who can answer me? Who can lead and guide me?

Regards,
the very upset owner.