Tiada Lagi Mentari Bersinar Cempaka Mekar di Pagi Hari

Sang Putera mengidam cempaka mekar tiap pagi hari yang bagaikan indah dan sinarnya mekar cempaka yang dihayati dan dialuni dalam hati sang putera. Kedinginan dan kesunyian pagi bagi sang putera nun dibagaikan syurga di alam kayangan yang indah dan gemilangnya tiada dapat dibayangi dari minda manusia apatah diibaratkan dengan kata-kata sajak diklamasi.

Sayangnya, cempaka itu tiada lagi, sudah tiada dan tiada. Kecainya hati sang putera kini boleh dianggap seorang jejaka yang bukan lagi sang putera tetapi seorang budak lelaki yang tiada darjat yang hanya bagaikan pengemis yang mohon sedekah makan minum dari khalayak ramai.
Kecainya hati sang putera dipagi itu melihat cempaka telah tiada dihanyut air bah pergi, ditiup angin kekencangan entah pergi kemana arahnya, disilat petir sudah apa lagi habis debu and abunya ke tanah entah perginya kemana. Hanya seru, kasih dan belas teman-teman di laman itu yang mampu difahami oleh sang putera.

Tangis putera tiada makna lagi, ingatan dan angannya dahulu kepada cempaka sudah hancur di hati sang putera. Hanya boleh jadikan sajian di setiap penjuru hatinya, iaitu ingat mahupun kenangan. Itu yang mampus dilihat lagi sang putera di laman setiap pagi kerana itu semua adalah keesaan pembuat laman itu.

Tiada erti juga jikalau cempaka itu datang kembali kerana keayuannya adalah kepunyaan laman lain yang lebih kebesaran, kekuasaan dan kemewahan penikmat laman lain. Dan kini, sang putera hanya sujud di jiwa dan hati, lurus kepada guru alam laman dan terus menjaga laman kini agar lebih bermegah bagaikan penikmat-penikmat lain agar bencana dan mushibah tidak menjadi alunan dan dendangan penikmat lain yang kini megah bersemayam dengannya.

The flowers of lilly have been gone, it have been lose and have no more. The prince could say nothing, the heart of nothing to thought, the mind would nothing can moving. The prince only have way to hope for his divine Master, the creator of the garden that have fulfilled the glorious and bloomsom lilly that standing in the lake, decorating the surface of living creatures.

Living Rain and Living Water

Happy New Year everyone! Wish you all a prosperous and blessing new year.

Today is forth day of chinese new year, the year of Ox in Chinese calendar. For me this year many challenges, risks, heavy loads and misfortunes incidents have happened particularly the latest flood incident which have submerged my house up to my foot inside my house. I really not understood why this time floods really have 'human instint' or 'feeling' to where it will submerge and make various tragedic incidents to many situation and various types of difficulties and hardship.
Like in certain places, some have never been flooded are submerged by the water. Some that thought the water will unable enter thier house will destroyed by the landslides or collapse by surrounding hillside soil or rockhill.
Strange, the flood-prone areas in this time not in danger or precautions anymore and the residents in that area now can breath a bit relieve from heavy sigh. Some prones places still continuosly struck by the disaster just like never granted pardon by Divine Creator.

I remember how on flooding day prepared for the floods, 'welcome' it to my house and run as a war refugee. When water keep submerge and submerging after taking vital and necessary documents, clothes and some pocket cash then I and my mom run away from house to temporary shelter which is as 'evacuation center'.
Very sad, some friends have made funny things in this incident. Of course some friends concerned have expressed thier concern to us, pray and intercede for us and some have helping hand during cleaning time even though just for one day but at least thier concern is very precious for us, as precious as golden jewelry. May God be gracious and bless thier life.
For those friends have made funny things for us like teasing and gossping, God is fair and justice just like this Mother Disaster. Never flood area now have been submerged, what if to say fully flooded by water? Usual flood-prone areas now not subrmered again.
Back I say, God is faithful and just, God is merciful and forgiveness. The book of Holy Bible have told us, me, you and everyone of us that The Lord Jesus will come again for second coming.
The Messiah have came and the Christ will come. The Nicene Creed have sung and said (nice hymn and it tune, do come to St.Thomas' Cathedral on every Sunday at 8.15am and listen; "WE LOOK FOR SECOND RESURRECTION OF THE DEATH, AND THE LIFE OF THE WORLD TO COME, AMEN."

Let's pray and remember, "Ya Bapa yang kudus, Allah maha berkuasa dan pengasa dalam kemulian bersama Kristus yang Kudus, Engkau telah diwartakan di Kitab ialah Pencipta alam semesta, pencipta langit dan bumi, dari yang kelihatan dan tidak kelihatan. Kedatangan Engkau telah berlalu 2000 tahun lepas dan sekarang menanti kedatangan Engkau kedua.
Tuhan mahapengasih, apa pun terjadi dalam banjir ini, kami tetap bersyukur kerana pelindungan dan penaungan Engkau tetap menyertai kami semua kerana Engkau ialah Immanuel kami. Berkati kami dalam perkara ini, untuk kami ingat bahawa manusia harus tolong-menolong, kasih-mengasihi dan mengampuni sesama sendiri. Setiap perkara adalah pengajaran untuk kami ada hikmat dan pengajaran sebaliknya. Biarlah kami dengan sesiapa yang menangis sama menangis, yang ketawa sama ketawa agar nama-Mu dimuliakan bersama dalam Bapa dan Roh Kudus, satu selama-lamanya, Amen."

The Day of Tomorrow and After

4 years ago things had happened and I have reminded myself how the life as a refugee faced in every moment, minute and time. Every single of feeling; sad, hurts, frustrated, and anger does not displayed actual feeling of thankful and grateful. Every of us surely will feel in same way if such incident forced us to be as REFUGEE.

Sharp at 5pm on sunday, January 11th, I and mom have needed to embraced the incident again in our life, for our home, the place in actual meaning as our heavenly home, submerged by king tide floods. Strange, this time floods all in sudden getting submerge and submerging, going up and increasing without any heavy rains or downpour with thunderstorm compared to worsen floods many years ago. Every resident of the area kept watched out since day before the floods occured. Everyone moving thier vehicles, cars to highest ground nearer somewhere else. Surely some may doing vigil prayer to ask for Divine Creator merciful and forgiveness to protect them from the natural disaster again.

But how is our prayer and intercession being answered by the Divine Creator then? I believe some may intercede and intercedes for over and over, for sake of everyone goodness and to comfort every peoples of effected areas. However? Is the prayer answered or this floods just for us by the Creator to examine how our believe and faith strength that have inside our mind and soul? Is that what i'm guess? If so, how many of goods and property have been destroyed summed up then? How will pay and compensate for the loses then? WHERE does the money come from to replace for new one then? Im sure not all of us could answer this question, you can asnwer but not answer in action.

Saya Tak Tahu dan Saya Tak Suka.....Benci.....

Satu perbualan telah dijadi pada petang tadi mengenai sesuatu yang telah lama membuatkan saya rasa begitu dihantui sejak dari zaman kanak-kanak lagi, iaitu sesuatu yang tidak suka saya dengar dan rasai kerana semuanya telah hancur dan hanya satu pembohongan dan penipuan saja.
Sejak dari itu waktu zaman kanak-kanak saya lagi telah menganggap perkara tersebut sesuatu yang benci saya rasakan dan apabila tanpa disedari perkara tersebut akan membuatkan perasaan saya berubah dan bertukar menjadi perangai saya yang begitu buruk sehingga akan meninggalkan kesan kepada sesiapa saja yang telah mengungkit perkara tersebut tadi, tidak mengira usia ataupun apa-apa saja.

Saya tahu apakah itu negeri emas di tanah orang dan negeri perak di tanah sendiri. Jika dibayangi semuanya serba ada, mewah and indah di negeri emas orang lain dan apa yang terdapat di negeri perak sendiri? Semuanya buruk, tak indah, busuk dan dianggap sebagai kelas yang terendah sekali. Tetapi kenapa harus mengungkitnya lagi di depan saya sedangkan perkara itu menjadi sesuatu yang menghantui pemikiran saya sejak zaman kanak-kanak lagi?
Jikalau menunjukkan muka yang tidak indah dipandang kerana rasa benci terhadap perkara itu apa pula dikatakan mereka? Kita pula dipersalahkan kerana tidak menghormati mereka?
Tetapi begitu maniskah didengar begitu saja benda yang tidak suka saya dengarkan?
Mengapakan sesuatu yang dijanjikan dulu tidak ditunaikan agar hidupan menjadi satu pengalaman yang indah dan 'diberkati' tetapi sebaliknya memberi pelbagai alasan-alasan yang pedis dan pedih didengarkan? Saya faham and mengerti jikalau suatu perjanjian itu.........ahhhhh........nak jelaskan pula tiada apa-apa perubahan dapat terjadi.

Tetapi yang menakjubnya, datang seorang khalifah yang hatinya berbudi dan baik memberi petunjuk untuk hidup di dunia yang penuh fana dan ketamakan ini. Katanya khalifah itu bahawa kunci dalam semua adalah ketenangan dan harapan yang kuat diletak dalam tangan Pencipta disertai kesabaran dan doa yang tulus penuh harapan. Khalifah tersebut juga terus menerangkan yang sesuatu perkara adalah hikmah di setiap penjurunya dan harus disedari yang Pencipta itu adalah yang adil dan saksama. Sesuatu berkat da harapan akan terbentuk dan didatangi sinaran kasih yang penuh mesra dan indah kerana semuanya itu akan datang terus menenui kita seperti mana dijanji Pencipta kita yang mahakasih dan maha pengampun.
Dia akan memberi setiap yang patut untuk kita seperti dijanjikan-Nya.
Bagi saya, hati khalifah tersebut sesungguhnya hanya seorang mahluk ciptaan Pencipta tetapi hasratnya begitu murni, ikhlas dan memahami sertai begitu mengasihi. Begitu besar pahalanya akan ditunjukkan dan dikurnian Pencipta untuk khalifah tersebut.
Sudah jarang atau tiada lagi khalifah-khalifah lain di muka bumi ini sanggup seperti khalifah yang saya temui, semuanya sudah pupus tanpa diketahui alasannya. Bagi saya masih ada lagi khalifah-khalifah lain yang mempunyai hati murni seperti khalifah ini tetapi mereka begitu jauh dari sisi kehidupan saya.

Yang hairannya, aku rasa khalifah itu memang harus dijadikan pemimpin dan teladan bagi semua umat-umat Pencipta di muka dunia ini. Sekali lagi yang sedihnya, khalifah tersebut ditindas, ditolak dan diusir dari pangkat dan darjat sebagai seorang pemimpin umat-Nya. Di manakah toleransi dan timbang-rasa dimana berbentuk akal diberi Pencipta kepada setiap manusia ini? Mengapakan semuanya terkandung dalam kasih-mengasihi ini tidak lagi menjadi rutin pemakan jiwa manusia? Begitu sedih dan pilu aku dendangkan jikalau perginya khalifah tersebut pergi ke dunia dirinya lagi dan lagi pedis dan hancur hatiku syairkan jikalau tiada lagi khalifah itu dihargai setiap hasratnya yang ihklas dan takjum.

Aku berdoa bah kata setiap umat yang taat dan patuh, jikalau Pencipta aku kedengaran doa aku yang dihalang dinding-dinding munafik dunia, tunjukka jalan yang disinari kasih dan rahmat-Nya dalam setiap kehidupan harian khalifah-khalifahNya serta dipohon kasih dan sayangNya untuk memudahkan setiap perkerjaan khalifah-khalifahNya di dunia ini juga.
Apa yang lepas salah dijadikan ingat dan pengajaran, apa yang indah akan dijadikan harapan dan teladan selama-lamanya.

Dinner With the Officers

It was a great day for me to have a steamboat dinner cum 'farewell' for our officer and yet our good friend, Kenneth Michael who are northern archdeaconry on last sunday evening at Yun Wei Steamboat. The atmosphere in the evening were very warm and delighted to have that such occasion dinner with them. There were four among us during the dinner except our adviser who were adsent for his own reception dinner too. We, such as Shierley, Paul, Ken and me were having the dinner.

I was took some of time to Saberkas to bought some souvenir for Ken as behalf of me and our guild, thanks God for every of His countless blessing. Before we left cathedral for the dinner, I had an opportunity to watched some performance dance by Korean team in the parish hall, even i just bypassed them, at least i can see that how does Korean prettiest girls and ladies look like because most of the time, Korean just appeared in the tv screen and it is very doubt if those actors are fully make-up or its pure natural face........hahahaa...

An approximately 20 minutes arrived, it quite frustrated when the restaurant crowded with many customers, almost pack every corner and angle of the outlet are pack with peoples. So unexpected. Fortunate in finally we have one table for us to cater our seat for the dinner even though the table look bit 'nasty' but it really thanks God. Shierly in first unable to eat some foods such as pepper beef, garlic lamb and other mean ingredient since she felt unwell that day but I do touched as she could able to spend her precious time to be with us as she suppose to stay at home for proper rest and adequate sleep.

We have a lot of topic to talked about, ranging from our ministry services, temptations, and many more until the planning for next future. I hope that everything may proceed smoothly and excellently so that it may bear fruitful for our divine Creator. Before leaving Paul presenting a souvenir for Ken, nice and good look photos during their visit to Betong and our trip recently to Quop village, properly sealed with the plastic and also the photo binded with printed frame. Untill almost midnight we dismissed the place, paid the bill and go back to the cathedral to drop by those officers back to their own vehicles and Ken back to his hostel flat......hehehhe....
Friendship never be separated and we still talking again in the cathedral parking compound, woww.... i really feel that we just like as a family member. Hopefully those resident that night not spare us aannoying.......hahaha.




After I given my own souvenir to Ken, it is my sincere hope that Ken will continuously look forward his ministry in his parish guild more effectively and efficiently to deliver his service to his divine Creator as well as to lead his fellow to the right tracks as a salt to their community and also to guide them of perfection. May he also get assisted by the product in term of paper works to produce evidence and codes for his ministry and get his planning in more creative and well innovative. This is our hope from his fellow from other region, of course from Paul, Shirley and me, and of course a hope from Him as we're to serve His Organization in excellent service
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Server's Camp at Quap Village

St.James Parish, Quap Village
2008 Server's Camp

Yesterday was the first day for 3 days server's camp organized by the parish with 40 participants from various chapels under the parish, such as from Duras, Mambok Bau, Seratau, 13th mile and 12th mile.

I was invited by me server advisor to joined the camp for one day only with other members as a team for the camp, our chief, the advisor himself, the chief from Batu Kawa and also the advisor from Lutong (the Lutong guy......hahaha). The day fill with experiences, memorable and loving trip from the cathedral to the location of the camp. I has had met with many participants and it was very encouraging camps and yet showing positive participation base on commitment and cooperation by the participants. In term of gender participation for the camp, the males and females particapants have shown equal indication that no such female more than male or, vice versa. Before the commencement of the talks or sharing session after our arrival probably around almost 5pm, we were greet and welcomed by the camp programmer, Peterson Matthew
and after that I took the opportunity for photography upon our arrival.

Photograhpy with (from left); Paul Francis, Kenneth , Shierly Rawan , Peterson the programmer and Stacy Chai.

We attended the Evensong service in the church sharply at 5.30pm and the service lead by the Sub-deacon Macaulley. We sung two popular christmas songs and said the evensong service prayer as well as singing magnificant and nuns dimictis.
We also visiting Peterson house for christmas visiting and his hospitallity are warmly welcomed us to his house. He served us with christmas goddies like biscuit, cutter fish and also an alchoholic brandy. (damn....fear if i get drunk )

Photography with Sub-Deacon Macaulley, 2nd from right.

After all, we started our session of with introduction of each of us. I'm so glad because I can shared my experiences and testimonial with them of being as a server and spoken in bidayuh language as my sharing language medium. I also told them that being a server is priority of serving God and not the human being. May God be gracious to them in wherever they serve in each of their church or chapel.

In mid of night, the atmosphere became felt chilled as the church located at the top hill, the session continued again by the chief and the adviser. Many of them impressed and started to asking question. Its showing that they are getting to know further and thinking out of the box.
Practical session also conducted of showing Eucharist equipment preparation by Stacy. Some members have been called to try their skills of arranging the equipment after demonstrated by Stacey.

Again, this memorable camp is never to be forgotten in my mind moreover, it benefits every of us including myself, to upgrade and updated my serving skills particularly when during serving in the church and also to serve the heavenly Father in His service.

I hope this blog can show my appreciation to all those concerned, our team, very great team and also the participants, may God guide them to good path and may God lead them to excellent serving. More photos and illustrations can be viewed in my Friendster and Facebook profile, please do free to add me and I'll be delighted to see you. May God be gracious to everyone of us, now and eternally.

Side-front view of the 160 years old St.James Quap church. Left-side is the new church buidling (red color roofs)

Eat With Former Classmates

Eating With Former Secondary Peers!

This afternoon we have spent am awesome and pretty moment with Crystal and Jack who have just flew back to Kuching from capital city. It is a long decade ago we havent meet with each others since after completed our secondary school times. We're still remembered what we have achieved and targeted during the school days while regular meeting as a Christian club fellows on every friday after class session.

Picture shoot with friend, Jackson, the potential teacher in Chemistry.

As usually we have contacted with others through SMS and we decided to met at the Spring mall. We having lunch together at HongKong food outlet, and many delicacies we were ordered, all are very appetized and thirsty-looking drinks. Crys and Jac have no idea what to order and what drinks to prefer but I asked them to choose whichever that they thought good to eat since this is their first time visit to the outlet. During the lunch, a lot of topics we have arose, things happen from the pastr during our school time until our future planning lifestyle like marriage, boy-girl friends, and many more. We felt very delighted and warmly felt during the session and it seem that we're unable to away from the outlet.

When our foods and drinks delivered, we served the foods and enjoyed it. Jack eat his pork noodles and butter bread, while Crys, just see the photo. I was eating pork noodle too and mother nature drink. Every of us eat the foods in silent moment for a while to taste the foods. After that we're shoting again in front the camera as memory keeping.

Picture show Crys enjoying her thirsty drinks, 'Mother Nature'

and her pork-stewed rice and butter bread and also the pork noodle.

Wah.woww..come on lady......u better watch up!

50kg+1kg+2.5kg+2kg=?????

I'm eating pork riasin noodle with vege's and beside of the bowl is my favor mother nature drink.

Crys talked a lot during the meets and she have shown her very uniqueness characteristics including her last time big smiles with small 'volume' voice, really like a just-born kitten. Hehehehe.....

At sharp 4.30pm we 're leave the outlet, thanks alot guys for your precious time to spent together for the simple 'reunion' lunch. For JAck who just graduated his chemistry study, may u get a job as quickly as possible, not depend in govt so much, private also can, 'janji' salary big...hahaha...Crys, just knew that your aunt have been called to the Lord, May her soul rest eternally and May God guide your studies and reme,ber once you back to malaya.

Finally, We pray that may God will graciously bless all of us, our life, our study and our works. May we who are His children will grant us a love and hope so that His name will be lifted and glorified eternally. May this photo of blessed Virgin Mary is dedicated and in memory of our good friend, the late Edmund, may his sould enjoy eternally in Father House.