a HEART of heartless....felt as stumbled.

Today i come again to express my feeling, have no idea where to go and how to begin but knowing that i have come straight to the point.

When doing something we do with whole-heartedly and whole-feeling, with sincerely and faithfully, but when something evil come to place, such as sabotage and slandering, no good will able to come to help and assist,. Just patience and give hope........why good way have to be in that process to against the evil?

Today when i doing something, i was called by 'authorizer' to give a hand, to help as say. When asked where the actual stock placed, i said it clearly and directly, i said 'Here'. It is here.
the officer does not believe and said bad words toward me, even thought the stock truly in the place as i mentioned. He got the stock but he still scrumbed me with such bad words.
I answered the officer with the proper tone that the stock is in the place as i mentioned, but th situation became worse and worsening. the officer continuously scrumbled and scrumbling me with many of the words and not acceptable.

I tried to defense myself and point myself to the actual and truth reasons but everything are defenseless and breathless. the words came from it mouth described as strong as the powerful current circulation. None even one of my mouth able to defense me and gave me courage and strength. I kept showering by the unacceptable and very hurt words. Its felt like a knife strucked into my flesh, bleeding of the bloods and very very hurt.
I can do nothing as able to scream and shout, cry and falling down to the earth. Crying as stupid child in the street, tears dropping down as raining.
Nobody is near, no, no, not even one give me comfort except be petience and self-conrtol. WHY??????????
WHY???????????

My mind truly tried to keep patient, keep calming and keep hoping. Hope for the good sake and good for all. Its just like to sacrifice.....sacrifice for the good sake.
the mind just as human being,,,,....said, be trust and hope in Him, the most divine and most merciful and understanding CREATOR.
HOhhhhhhhhhhhhh, cREATOR???? Be patience? Be trustful????????????
hehehahahahaha...............................i almost become crazy and mentallly sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do u know, i got hurted and felt as blood bleed into the floors, i become restless, defenseless and discomfort. But still to be patience and struggle for calms.
If you in my place, u may think How HOLY and how GREAT of ME?
If others in my place, im sure he/she will started the fire of bushes, spreading the fire to others and get more fires. As i mean here, fighting and quarrelling. Throwing what are surrounded and everyhtings are broken.

But why myself aking my mind just to be trustful and patiencely? Get the Creator a centralization of every nerves?
And then hoping for good and for very good sakes?
Have you ever seen individual or person like me to react the situation? Were you?

Can you answer me?